kitty cat dance

ok so i thought this was so cute i had to post it.

why, oh why

our son came up to us Sunday and told us a man asked him to touch his (the man's) penis. Now we are going through all of the stuff you go through when this happens. He is already in counseling because he is having problems in school with meltdowns. We take him to the police precinct Thursday for DHS and the police to interview him. We may have to take him to child protective services depending on how he does with the interview. He is supposed to go see his counselor later that day. This is going to be a long hard road and i wish we didn't have to go through this, especially my seven year old.

Better late than never!

I am finally getting our Christmas calendars printed. I will have to take them in to get the binding done but I am hoping next year I will be able to get my own machine. The calendars are pretty easy to make. They take a lot of ink and time but it's worth it. It is the only thing my in laws want for Christmas and my dad said if it's all he gets he would be happy. I tried to get pictures of everyone in this year for my dad's calendar but I still don't have pictures of everyone. I guess next year I will ask for pictures sooner. In fact if anyone reads this from my family feel free to send me pics throughout the year!

I have a new niece now! She is a cutie. (I hope you don't mind me stealing a pic, Mandi!) I can't wait to see her in person. I get to do that when I go for my other niece's birthday. I am excited to be able to see my family. It has been quite awhile!

My oldest has been going to a counselor for a couple weeks now. He is seven and is having some issues. He had a meltdown at school and that is what led us to start with counseling. He is going to get assessed for autism and his counselor suggested it may be adhd. I guess time will tell. I think he is a wonderful kid no matter what comes of this! Of course I am a little biased being his mom and all. LOL

why are people this way!?!?

ok so i am not great with the blog thing. I saw this thing about Christian Bale ranting and raving and I just can not believe how stupid it is! He is screaming and swearing at this guy calling him unproffesional when he is acting like a spoiled little brat! Someone needs to slap him in the face and tell him to calm down, Sh*t happens!! Instead of having a 3 minute tirade he could have just moved on and gotten done with his scene. Then there are these big time execs making millions a year taking federal bailout and then trying to get bonuses! Then there are the people committing suicide and murder because they lost their jobs. You have to go on. Don't hurt your family cause you lost a stupid job. There are more out there and maybe you won't be able to live like you did before but there are ways to get by. We are going through it right now. Steve lost his job a week before Christmas. Now I am the only one working. We went from $400 to $500 a week to about $500 a month. We have two kids, one who is in diapers but we are still going. This and I am already suicidal to begin with! On top of that we can't afford my meds so I haven't been on them. Now if there isn't a great recipe for a suicide due to this economy then I don't know what its. I am not out there trying to kill myself. I won't EVER hurt my family. It's just stupid! Wake up people!!! You need to look to the future and get on with it. Quit being selfish and quit being spoiled brats! Ok there is my rant. I think I can go head to head with anyone right now. In fact off my meds I am pretty unpredictable and would probably be a little worse than any actor has ever been(my poor husband has to go through this:()

so much for work

I can't believe it. I start working thinking this is great. I am going to be bringing in some money and we can finally get our bills caught up and live a little easier. Well Ryne is not adjusting to daycare. He has been there for three weeks and won't eat when he is there and won't do anything. He screams when other kids come near him. So now I have to quit my job. My daycare provider can't take care of him anymore. Unless by some miracle it changes by Wednesday I am looking for a different job with really specific hours or needs. So now I get to eitehr try to find a job that a) is from 4pm to 10pm b)somewhere I can take Ryne with me or c) a job where I can work from home. If anyone knows of any good jobs that fall into one or more of those catergories please let me know! I am starting all my applications for secret shoppers and am keeping my fingers crossed. I am going to turn in applications at the casinos and hotels. Plus there is a cleaning job that is part from 5pm to 9pm that I will apply for. It isn't like there are a lot of jobs out there to get with such limited hours of availability.

Other than that, things are going well. I am busy trying to get ready for my son's birthday plus my bil wedding. I am so tired all the time right now. I think that will improve once I get used to our school time schedule again. I go back in October for more blood work to check if my liver enzymes have returned to normal. I also need to talk to my dr about my memory again and also my dizziness. It has been almost 4 weeks but it is not much better. In fact my dizziness has stayed the same and my memory has improved only a little. I don't want to have to go back for this because he said the next step would be to scan my head. It is a scary thought.

I go to work today. I am dreading it because I am exhausted. I have to be there from 1 to 9:30. After that I am coming home and crashing in bed.

I hope everyone has a great labor day weekend. I know I will especially since I get paid to not work on Monday. LOL

sunday july 13th

Yesterday was Steve's birthday and he had to work! that sucked. we only had one whole day this weekend to be together as a family.

I got a call from Hills and Dales and need to try to call them back tommorow. I hope i get this job. I have a job lined up but it is in a call center so I hope to get something else before i am supposed to start.

Ryne has been very fussy and naughty today. He had his checkup on Friday and grew 3 inches since his last one. Noe he is at 31.5 inches and 24.5 lbs! He is getting 4 big molars in all at the same time!!

well thats it for now. i am tired and need to get ryne and alex settled in bed.

The beginning

I decided to make a blog today. I hope I can keep this updated somehwhat regularly. We have had a heck of a time lately. Nothing seems to be going right. Both our car and our van are down right now. I am stuck home. It usually doesn't bother me but I have some apps that I need to fill out and get in and now I am slacking because of our vehicle dilemma. I really want to go on vacation this summer. I don't know if we will be able to now with all the car problems. I guess it depends on how much it costs to fix our vehicles. On top of that I don't have any work until the 18th. I was working two days every weekend.

So I have decided to apply for Pharmacy tech positions. I really think this will be what I will enjoy and can do for the rest of my work life. I am keeping my fingers crossed.

Along with all of this i am trying to lose weight. I am hoping I can lose 60 lbs or so by the end of the year. I know that is a long time for 60 lbs but I am not so great at sticking with a diet and being really strict so i don't want to rush it. Plus I am hoping if I lose weight slowly that I won't have too much extra skin. After I lose the 60lbs I will figure out what more I want to lose and what I want to do. I may just try to sustain my weight for awhile. I need to know that when I get it off I can keep it off.